June 19, 2006 - 9:18 a.m.

Dear Diary,
It's been a rough couple of days now to say the least. I've been throwing up and shitting out everything possible inside of me. Hopefully today is a better day but up until last night, I wasn't even able to hold down water or jello that Greg was feeding me. I was alowed to try a tiny glass of water or gingerale ever hour as long as I could keep it in me. I was so thirtsy. Jello was another story. I couldn't even eat more then half a bowl without it coming out. So here I am, sitting around at home trying to feel better. I called into work sick today and I plan to take things pretty easy. It's kinda nice to have a day off anyways. I fell so skinny though today which feels good. My hands and wrists and coller bones long and feel skinnier to me and I love that feeling. Do you ever get that feeling after throwing up everything in you until you are completely empty, that in the next days to follow you don't want to eat anything because you feel so skinny? Well, that's how I am feeling now. I'll probably go and try some more jello to see if I can keep it in and so I don't get any more dehydrated then what I am now. It also doesn't help that it's a million degrees outside here and you are sweating none stop. My fever finally went down though and my temperature is back to normal which is great. Lets hope that it doesn't go back up though. Anyways, on another note, Alicia goes to court today and has to go on the stand and be questioned my the judge and her laywer and if Jared showes, then him as well. She's scared and nervous but I know that she'll do just fine and get through everything ok. I told her that my thoughts are with her. Good luck Alicia.
*love always stacy*

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