May 22, 2006 - 7:47 p.m.

Dear Diary,
Get out of the doldrums and enjoy life, Stacy. The situation is such that, if you remain stagnant for a little while, you will soon sink into a spiral of depression and downward thinking. If, however, your stay afloat and focused on your dreams, you will remain active in your pursuit of all your life's goals. You will have the power of the universe behind you, supporting you one hundred percent of the way.
I'm very impressed with myself right now. I thought that it might be a long while again wihout me writing but I'm never really sure. I say that I will try to write more frequently but sometimes it seems that I always seem to find other more important things that need to get done and it ends up getting put off to the side...For some reason I am sitting here with a loss of words even though I have a million thoughts running through my head.
The long weekend here is pretty much over for me. It was a fantastic one at that though. Greg and I got the chance to spend a lot of time together and we really had a great time spending each day doing different things with one another. I go back to work tomorrow which means that I will need to be up at 6:00am and in other words that means that I am currently sitting here in bed all bundled up in my pajamas and blankets writing this as I know that I don't have much longer before I will be off to bed.
I've had a lot of mixed emotions this weekend and tonight more specifically about eating and starving and letting my body feed from itself. I've also felt as if I've been more or less binging a lot this weekend and that has really made me upset. I feel like I've filled myself so much and betrayed my body. I feel like I'm being torn between two dimensions and I can't choose between the two. Sometimes it's so hard to tell yourself to just stop and get a grip of everything. I'm really struggling right now. Where should I be? What should I do? When will I actually begin to notice the weight dropping off of me?
*love always stacy*

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