July 11, 2005 - 9:08 p.m.

Dear Diary,
Your thinking is quite clear, STACY, and you will find that your emotions are supporting your mental processes. Your psychic nature is also strong, and you should trust any hunch that you have. The masculine and feminine sides of your being are working together harmoniously to balance out the degree of give versus take in your world. The key for you at the moment is to not adopt other people's problems as your own.
I'm kinda upset right now and needed to vent. This diary comes in handy quite often for this when I don't have anyone else. I'm just upset because we just got home from an afternoon of madness and I come in to find an email from Greg's mom telling me about things I had talked about to Greg that he had told him mom AGAIN and her thoughts on it. This makes me so frustrated sometimes. I know I'm going to need to talk with Greg about this somehow...sometime...in some way that is going to not sound so harsh. I just don't know how. I don't want to make him upset and all but this is making me upset. It seems that every time I tell Greg something that is important to me or my concerns or worries or what have you, he says something to his mom about it and then she comes after me telling me what was said and reminding me that putting Greg in the middle of things makes him worry. I tell Greg things knowing that I can trust him with the things that concern me and things I would like us to share as a couple but lately it gets told to his mom which drives me nuts. I told Greg this weekend how I was upset with everything that was left in my room by other people and not cleaned up and that I would talk with him mom later and then tonight him mom emailed me telling me that I put Greg in the middle and he said something to her so she was saying all this to me. No wonder I bundle so much stuff up inside of me. I don't know. I'm just upset. I wish I could just let Greg know how I'm feeling then wait for me to feel comfortable enough in my own way to approach that person. *sigh* I need to talk to Greg about this. And then I find out that Greg's mom has been sleeping in our bed during the week without our permission. Thats so nasty! I can't even begin to explain. I hate other people sleeping in my bed. Especially in this heat and with everyone sweating. I told Greg's mom that I don't have a problem with her borrowing my fan to sleep with on in her room but I am very uncomfortable with her sleeping in our bed. I told her it was nothing against her, it's just the way I feel. It would be the same with family, non family, friends, anyone but Greg and I. It's the same reason that I don't go around sleeping in her bed or anyone elses bed. It's just a thing I have. I know Greg feels the same way. *sigh* I don't feel any better then what I did when I started this but I feel better for writing.
*love always stacy*

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