May 09, 2005 - 9:18 p.m.

Dear Diary,
Imagination combines with intellectual abilities to enable you to make some creative changes to your home, STACY. This could be something minor, such as purchasing some new plants, or a major project, such as remodeling or redecorating. Whatever you choose to do, you're likely to channel a lot of your energy into it right now in order to produce results that you and the other members of your household can be happy with. Have fun!
So I'm back home at my parents house. Not out of choice though. Believe me, if it was up to me, I would still be in K-town and living a normal life and not dealing with my mom and the shit she pulls. Things to be quite honest have been miserable. From the moment I got home on Saturday, she has been on my case about every little thing. Anything I do and every action I make, she has something to say about it and complains. It doesn't matter what I do, get yelled at and in trouble for it. I'm not thrilled. I'm pissed off at a lot of things as well. First of all about the income tax money that was suppost to be mind and that mom put in my bank account since I wasn't home yet. She told me that she had placed the money into my account however that I wasn't suppost to spend it as they didn't have to give it to me and it is to go towards rent for the fall. So I freaked out and was like "WHAT?!" and dad is just standing there behind mom shaking his head back and forth trying to signal to me not to say anything and that he'd talk to me later. So I didn't bring it up at all and just said whatever. Then I find out from dad that he thought that my start date at Fram was going to be a lot later then what was expected. So I wasn't thrilled about that as I have turned down three very good jobs that would have looked great on a resume as I'm a first year college student and most students in first year don't get offers like the ones I had. So I was really upset about that. Sunday I confirmed with my mom about my start date at the factory and she said that my orinentation wouldn't be until the week of May 30th! So I'm pissed off. That's not right at all. I could have been working for a full month strate and getting paid and now I'm doing nothing! Mom and I went to the laundry mat early Sunday morning with everything I brought back home to get washed as she's parinoid about everything smelling like smoke. We got everything washed and came home to find that dad and Kirk had taken the winter cover off of the pool. So of course I had to help with things. It was "do this" and "do that" and "can you get me this" or "go and find me this"...ALL DAY! Mom got mad that I was wearing a sweater and pants and told me to go and change into something cooler but first of all, that's a little hard when all of your other clothes are hanging to get dry after being washed and you have nothing lighter to wear. Plus I came out and told her that I was an adult and I know what I'm hot and when I'm cold and when I need to change. It's incredible at how rotten she treats me. Dad and I went out in the afteroon so I could get her something for mother's day (again, not by choice) and I talked to dad. He said not to worry about the money from income tax as they would worry about my rent and pay it for me. I also expressed to him that I was upset about my start date at Fram and that I had turned down other jobs for it. That I could have been making money to save up for school and such and now I'm out another months pay! He just went on about "well, it's only one month. You wouldn't have made that much money" and so on. I wasn't thrilled about thoughs comments since my parents aren't the ones paying my tution or books or any of my extra costs. He didn't say much after that though. As far as today went, I got up and dad was still around so I talked with him and he said that he was going to work on a house for an hour, hour and a half and then had to run out to Canadian Tire. So I told him to come home first and get me and that I would run out there with him. So he said alright. I got in the shower and got ready and then went down to see June, Jennifer, Nick and Thomas as they were sitting outside. After visiting with them I came home to continue waiting for dad and then we went out to the mall. Took a walk throug and I waited in the book store until he was done at the realiters place and then went into Canadaian Tire to get what he needed. We left there and went to get coffee, toured around uptown and came home. I helped dad out some with the pool and getting the pump working and then had lunch and not too long after that, he had to get going for work. I worked on my laptop for a little while until mom came home and then we left to go back to the laundry mat to finsih up with my pillows and such. Came home and mom went for a walk, Kirk then came over to help around here with the deck furniture and then around 7:30 I put dinner in the oven. Now I'm just sitting online talking with Greg who is all excited since he got the program that he has been working on for Doug, finally up and running. I'm so happy for him. He's been really struggling with this one and we thought that he'd never get it working. Greg and I that is. It's good though that it's there and working. Hopefully Doug will be impressed and like what has come of it all. We'll see though. Other then that, I'm bored and miserable and upset and angry that I'm home. I want to return so bad. I can't get a hold of Alicia which bothers me as well. It's busy as of right now too. I'll try tomorrow I guess. As for tonight, I should get going. I'll write soon. Take care everyone.
*love always stacy*

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