February 08, 2005 - 9:09 p.m.

Dear Diary,
Today is a great day for you, and you should be able to get a tight rein on your runaway emotions, STACY. But don't yank on the horse all at once. Tenderness and nurturing are key elements of the day. The more steady and conservative you are in your approach, the more successful you will be with just about every task you undertake. Lady luck is in your favor.
I'm rather bothered tonight about something that was brought up at home on Sunday when Greg and I returned for a birthday celebration for Carolann. We were all sitting at the dinner table and began talking about things that Kirk and I did when we were younger and growing up. Things from the normal brother/sister stuff, then having the cops called on us for loud music and the trials we had with mom and then everyone began to bring things up about me and eating. One thing that I can't stand hearing people talk about. Well, mom went on and on and I was sitting there saying to myself over and over again "please don't let her bring up the anorexic thing again". Well, of course she just couldn't help get that out and in front of everyone. I felt like shit and didn't know what to say. I'm sure I turned red. I'm still bothered about it and it's effected how I've been eating ever since...
We came home Sunday night from my parents place and I was asleep in bed by 9:25pm only to be woken at 11:00pm with a terrible stomach ache that sent me running to the bathroom. I sat throwing up for an hour and then finally fell asleep again sometime after midnight which then led to me staying in bed for the rest of the following day. I didn't make it to the daycare yesterday and I'm sure now that I'll have to make a day up but it was worth it. I was so weak and tired that I would have been no good with the children yesterday. I was back up and moving around today though. Feel fine. I'm not sure what happend. Mom's little announcement at the dinner table Sunday night though didn't help much. I wish she could just stop bringing things up...
*love always stacy*

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