May 02, 2004 - 11:29 a.m.

Dear Empty Soul...

As wastedcamel would say. Had to take that from somewhere and what better place then from you?

I'm really not in the greatest of moods right now and with good reasons. I start work tomorrow with my mom at the factory. I'm not in the least bit impressed. I really don't want to be there and I keep telling myself the little things such as "Its only a couple of months" or "Just think of the money"...stuff like that but I think its stopped helping me feel better and now I'm feeling like shit. *sigh* What to do now? I'm really not looking forward to tomorrow. I wish that there was some way to get out of all of this but what would that be now? Nothing comes to mind. And yet I continue to feel like shit. Greg's upstairs...programing or something. I'm bored to say the least but its ok. I guess that's why I'm writing here. Nothing much else to do right now. I really don't feel like playing games at this point which may come as a surprise because it certainly comes as a surprise to me. I think it partly has to do with the mood that I'm in right now. Today is just one of thoughs days. *looks out the window*

Its been forever since I've heard from Alicia. I'm such a terrible friend. I don't know what to do anymore. I supose that I could try her work number that she gave me the last time that we talked but God only knows if she's even working there anymore. That would be my last resort. I wonder if Virgina has even talked with her. I know Mallory hasn't and I have a feeling that Crystal hasn't either since she hasn't been talking with me or Mallory lately. I never know anymore. lol. Apparently Greg had a dream the other night that had both Alicia and I in it. I find that very weird since he doesn't even know Alicia but anything is possible in a dream. Things are strange that way.

It's still raining outside. It started sometime throughout the night and hasn't let up since. Maybe it will later on. The hockey game starts at 2:30. Maybe I'll lay down for a bit before then if I can't find anything else better to do. I have homework that needs to be done but I would be kidding myself if I said I were going to try and attempt to complete some of it. I'm not bothered right now. I'm just not into anything at the moment.

*love always stacy*

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