March 24, 2004 - 6:09 p.m.

Dear Diary,

Try not to burn any bridges today, STACY, although you may find that you can't help saying exactly what is on your mind. Unfortunately this may lead to some hurt feelings; however, ultimately, you are not responsible for other people's reactions to your words. Just make sure that whatever you do today is done as a result of conscious plan as opposed to mindless reaction to a certain situation or comment.

I'm feeling rather misserable again today. I can't really explain it either. I just feel so hurt and down and upset with my parents. I'm not very impressed either. I just spent some of my time on my hands and knees picking up little pieces of wallpaper! All because of mom. Just had it in her mind all of a sudden to just begin ripping off pieces of wallpaper in our kitchen and by this weekend apparently it will all be repanted. So of course, because she got this crazy idea to do this, I got stuck cleaning up after her. So as you can tell, I'm not exactly impressed and rather pissed off at that. Even though it didn't take me long to do, I still ended up having to. Its after 6:00pm now and I'm not entirely sure whether or not I will eat anything for dinner. I really don't feel like having to find something frozen and then wait for it to cook and so on. Plus, I'm not really feeling like much tonight. If I do decide to have a little something later, it will be an apple or some dry cereal. Sounds apatizing now doesn't it? Since mom spent all of her time in the kitchen on the chair, water bottle in hand scrapping off wallpaper, she didn't make anything either. In fact I'm not even sure what shes having to eat. I don't care anyways. I got up bright an early this morning at 6:30 and fell back asleep until 7:30 when I finally got up and got started on the dusting. Once I finished that, then it was on to the vaccuming and before long I notice that I even managed to get everything completed before 9:00am! Thats got to be an alltime finish time for me. Dad came out and said "why are you doing the cleaning so early?" and I just relpied with "well someone's got to do it and I'm not waiting around all day wasting time doing this so I'm doing it now" I've still got to get Ellie's cage all cleaned out tonight. That is assuming that I'm leaving tomorrow for Greg's but I'm still not sure about that either. I emailed him earlier this afternoon to ask him if he knew what was going on for this weekend and especially tomorrow because as far as I know I won't get a chance to talk to him tonight since he's suppost to be getting together with his partner from school to work on their project. Hopefully I'll find out soon. Anyways, I've got to get going. I think moms getting suspicious of what I'm up to in here. I don't want or need to be caught writing in this. Write soon.

*love always stacy*

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