November 20, 2003 - 9:23 a.m.

Dear Diary,

Dear STACY,

Today the cosmic conditions couldn't be better for peak physical and mental energy, STACY, and with this, you'll be able to take on most anything. With an added increase to your confidence level as well, now is the time to take steps towards your greatest goals. Rather than worrying about rejection remember the 'nothing ventured, nothing gained' rule of thumb. Even though you aren't one for much risk taking in some regards, the ones you choose to take today will likely be well worth it.

The phone woke me up again this morning just like yesterday and again, I'm not impressed. It was dad calling this morning though to find out a phone number for someone he needed to get in contact with. I'm so sore this morning. For some reason I can barely move the left side of my neck. It was sore last night before going to bed but I didn't think much of it and then went to bed to sleep for the night. Now when I got up this morning it's twice as sore and hurts a lot to move it. Maybe I've just pulled it in a strange way. Hopefully as the day moves on it will feel better and not hurt quite as much. I'm still tired seeing as how it was close to 1:00am when I fell asleep last night and then getting up early do to the phone ringing doesn't make things any better. Once I get done on here as well I have to go and finish off doing the dusting that I didn't get all done yesterday and then all of the vaccuming. I've also got to finish placing all the carpet down on the floor in my room, get my furniture all moved back into place, put the summer shoes all away in the storage closet, take out the outside Christmas lights, get this bag of stuff ready to take down to my neighbour June's house, and get in touch with Shauna to fine out when she is coming to pick up her mouse. I know there is tons more but there is no way that I will get everything all done today. I've got to work on my modules and disscusions though tomorrow as I am getting behind for my online course and need to get a lot done so I won't get kicked out of the course and then won't get the $50 back.

Anyways, I finally got to talk to Alicia Tuesday night. She sounded SO happy! I was glad to hear her like that because it hasn't been that way for a while and was quite a nice thing to hear in her. Things are looking a little more up for her but still, everything is so confusing and hard at this point. I didn't even get around to asking if her mom and Lorenzo made it to Nivada but I have a feeling that they did. I'll have to ask her the next time we talk just to make sure that that is what ended up happening in the end. Shes still not sure if she can make it here for December 12th but we are still trying. I'm determined that one of these days luck will finally come to me and I will wake to find a huge money tree on my front yard and I will be the only one that would be able to take the money off of it. However, I would be able to give it to anyone that I wanted to. :) That would be nice. I just wish there was some way to get her here. *sigh*

At least the sun is out and shinning brightly this morning. That's at least keeping me half alive. I've been feeling down ever since I came home last night and I'm not really sure why. Maybe its the whole hormone change since I'm on my period. Who knows. I know I'll bounce back though and I'll be back to normal. Just feeling down and all, thats all. I'm thinking too if its still nice at the end of the day, I might take a walk again with the baby. I have all this week to somewhere new each day. I'm not sure where it will be today but maybe I'll go down town to this nice little coffee shop and sit there with a drink and just look out the window watching everyone. *Nods* You know, it can be fun. lol.

Greg and I talked last night. I think I may have said something that sounded as if I was mad at him but really I wasn't. I hope he knows that. I just miss him...things between mom and I are all still screwed up. Shes at least talking to me but not at all very much! Its frustrating but a lot more quite around here. Shes still shelling out orders to "do this" and "do that" but what else is new? Other then that, things are all still pretty much the same. Just trying to stay sane and figure everything out. I suppose that I should get going here though and get my ass up and moving to get the house all cleaned for my parents before they get home. Hope everyone has a great day and is staying healthy and good. :) Take care everyone!

*love always stacy*

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