September 24, 2003 - 10:01 a.m.

Dear Diary,

Dear STACY,

Have you been waiting to execute some paperwork regarding money, STACY? If so, you might finally be able to do it today. Your signature on these documents may represent the first step not only towards an increased income, but a whole new life as well, perhaps something as subtle as a transformed state of mind. However, the change could also be as monumental as a move to a distant place. Whichever it is, make the most of it, and good luck!

Yesterday was my doctors appointment which for a long while I had been dreading more then anything else. That was all I could think about and now, I realize why. All with good reason. Granny came and picked me up about 10:05 even though I told her to be here for 10:15 because my doctors appointment wasn't until 10:30 and I really didn't feel like waiting around in the office just waisting my time by twirling my thumbs but she showed up early as usual. So we went in and I sat there. I didn't get in to see the doctor until 10:40 which would have been fine if I had been there for 10:30 when my appointment was for. It wasn't so bad though. I got in and expected the worst. And the worst is what I got. He told me that I have to return to the hospital for another treatment on October 14th. I go in for 8:00 but I have to be there 15 minutes earlier for registration again. I imagine that when I get through that I won't be able to walk out of there again either. Then on October 24th the doctor wants to see me to see how I am doing and monitor everything. On November 26th I go back to the Jenny Trout Center and have all the blood work done again. He says he'll be monitoring that very carefully even though all my results except for the one came back perfectly normal. And again on November 28th I go back to see the doctor so he can monitor everything and we start again from there. Hopefully that will be all. I'm walking much better today. I'm not dizzy anymore and stairs are becoming easier for me then what they were in the beginning which is nice although I'm still trying to avoid them. I'm still not sleeping back upstairs in my room either. I've been sleeping on the main floor in the spair bedroom everynight now for the past week. Things are starting to look up some right now but come October 14th and I'll be right back to where I began. In the hospital and drained. Emotionally and physically. Its something now that will keep me worried about.

I finally got Ellie placed back into her new cage yesterday. It took me a great deal of time with everything that had to be done to make sure it was going to be ok for her and get everything set up so that she wouldn't escape again but she's in there now and for the most part loving it. I checked on her first thing this morning when I woke up and she looks so happy. Now I can finally get other things put away up there and get things set up like I have been wanting to. I would like to get the top part of my desk put up and things placed in it and the finally I will more then likely take the old computer from down stiars here and get it all set up. I think it may need re-formated so I may need to ask Greg to do that although if he doesn't want to, thats ok. I know hes busy with school and the programming compitition and everything else. I know that he wants his time too so I will have to see. Its not like it needs to be done anytime soon either. I'm in no hurry as I have the other one to work on and it will just be for games and possibly the internet if I can get dad to pick the other part up from work that I need. So for now, it can wait.

I havn't been able to get a hold of Alicia now for about a week. I've been trying almost every other night and I tried again last night but still nothing. I have a feeling that something is up of which I don't know about just yet. I'll have to contiue trying to call and when I get some time (perhaps this week) then I will write her another letter and get it sent off in the mail. Lets just hope that everything is ok. I miss and love her so much.

As for today, I'm cleaning. Just the dusting and then tomorrow I will do the vaccuming. I also have to do some work on my online course but if I don't get around to that, thats alright as well. It can wait just as other things can as well. Dad had long left before I go up. And I was up at 8:30 tday so I'm not sure when it was that he left. Maybe by 7:00. I imagine that I will hear from him soon either calling to see how things are or coming home to see me for a few minutes. Other then that, my dad will be pretty boring as I'm sure you could already guess. Hope everyone else is having a great day. Its so nice out today. Not a cloud in the sky and there is a nice breeze coming in beside me from the opened window. :)

*love always stacy*

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