September 05, 2003 - 10:33 a.m.

Dear Diary,

Dear STACY,

Hop on board early today, STACY, or you may get left behind. If you sit around and wait for someone to grant you an invitation, you will probably never get where you are going. The taxi will not pull over if you don't make an effort to hail it down. Once you hop on board, there will be no stopping you. The key now is to make that first step. Today is a good day for you to initiate and then go wherever the tide takes you.

I just got back from the doctor close to an hour or so ago and everything is scheduled. First of all, I have to go and take in a perscription that the doctor wrote for me up to the pharmaci laster on when I get done this and then I'll have them deliver it afterwards, then I have to go to the Jenny Trout Center (its another health center) in a week or two whenever I want to go and have a lot of things such as my glucose, creatinine, cholesterol, triglyceride, blood film exam, hemoglobin, white blood count, hematocrit, HDL, LDL and TSH. A lot of tests that I'm very scared about. I'm not sure how much blood they will have to take or why I need to have all this done. He didn't say. When I was in the doctors office though he checked my blood pressure and said that it was very good and normal. Then on September 16th I have to go into the hospital at 8:30am for registration and normal prcedures (I guess thats what they call them) and finally into the clinic by what should be around 8:45am. Who knows how long I'll be there for. :( I'm so scared. After all of this, then I have to go back and see the doctor on September 23rd at 10:30am again. So the next couple of weeks I know will be very hard on me. Other then that, I think I'll try to get some rest today. I didn't make it home last night until 1:45am and then didn't get to bed until 2:00am while I had to be up at 8:00am this morning to get ready so that I could be on time for my doctors appointment which was scheduled for 9:00. Already it's been a long day. Hopefully this afternoon I can try to get a bit of sleep but we'll see. So far I'm not tired what so ever which is good. Its looks as if its going to be a nice day as well despite the cold air and breeze. Well, I guess thats about it for now. Nothing else to write about. Perhaps later on this afternoon if anything interesting happends in my life between that time.

*love always stacy*

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